I'm really sad, but not at all surprised that I am writing this post.
We have tried to help Boomer for over 3 years and he just is who he is. Unfortunately, his bad habit is dangerous.
For those of you who have been following the blog for a while, you know we have had our ups and downs. I have always kept trying and kept giving Boomer more chances to prove himself.
The fact is that he is an incredible athlete. I know he could be a star. He is totally capable of being a 100 mile horse. He could probably do Tevis. I am amazed at his ability and strength.
Unfortunately, he is reactive. I wouldn't even say that he is spooky. When something happens to upset him or doesn't go his way, he reacts in a big and dangerous way. This manifests as either pulling back while tied or throwing himself over backwards.
I have tried avoiding situations that make him flip, which does work to an extent, but makes me miserable to be walking on eggshells around him. We have thrown countless dollars in training at him to no change.
Our trainer agrees, he isn't scared. He gets mad.
I think that someone with more time, confidence, and knowledge could give Boomer a great home and use him to his potential.
I am just no longer able to feel safe around him. I have spent the last few weeks thinking of what I need to feel safe with him. I need to hear the words "He is cured, he will never pull back or blow up again". No one can tell me that. He went almost 2 years without pulling back. No one can guarantee that he will never blow up again, because he does it in protest, not out of fear.
If it was fear, it would be something that sacking-out or exposure could fix.
Unfortunately, my confidence has taken a pretty big hit in this process. I have a bit of fear and anxiety now around all horses. I feel like I am just waiting for them to blow up and flip over in the cross ties or whatever.
I need to take a step back and just take lessons for a while to rebuild my confidence. Maybe try a new discipline and ride a few solid horses. I'm not looking to own another horse anytime soon. Our next horse will be one that I can actually enjoy and is also safe for our whole family.
By all means, if you think you can help this horse and give him the home he needs, please contact me. He is dangerous on the ground and I have no doubt that he will hurt someone someday. He is also a dream to ride and learns quickly. He is built for endurance and will do great things in the endurance world.